I spoke to a dear friend of mine a few days ago and she reminded me that I only just moved and started on this new life path a few months ago...words that I needed to hear to be more patient and kinder to myself!
I am absolutely fine! Physically I am going to my yoga classes and walking A LOT, eating my plant based diet. Mentally, I continue to meditate and read books that I enjoy and are encouraging. Spiritually, I practice gratitude, and my personal devotion to divine source.
Emotionally, well that's the piece I have been struggling with lately.
Doubts about whether or not I will be successful as an entrepreneur. Fear of running out of money. Loneliness at times.
The uncertainty of pretty much everything in my life right now.
(although nothing is ever certain in life)
Yet still, I don't want to go back to what my life was, been there done that.
I am lucky and grateful to have the support of family and friends back home who keep me lifted up, even if I can only give them a virtual hug! And I am grateful for the new friends I am making here too!
So I will focus on shifting into "excitement" like when I was a little girl, not knowing, no judgements or expectations when I was experiencing something for the first time. (keeping my fingers crossed)
And it helps when Pema Chodron, American Buddhist nun says:
"When you open yourself to the continually changing, impermanent, dynamic nature of your own being and of reality, you increase your capacity to love and care about other people and your capacity to not be afraid. You're able to keep your eyes open, your heart open and your mind open. And you notice when you get caught up in prejudice, bias, and aggression. You develop an enthusiasm for no longer watering those negative seeds, from now until the day you die. And you begin to think of your life as offering endless opportunities to start to do things differently."